Love Addict E-Store open! Special release discount!

I had this idea that I was going to hold off releasing Love Addict through the webshop until we’d revamped my website and made it more functional.
These days, I mostly use Facebook or Tumblr to advertise my writing, so there’s not even a speck of info on the website about Love Addict… And frankly, the CS webstore isn’t very functional either, since there’s a separate web store for each book.

But, there hasn’t been much time to think of a functional way of refurbishing the site, much less pulling it off… And I know that my international readers are waiting for the webstore to be launched. At least I hope you haven’t given up on me yet!

So I decided to go ahead and open the webstore, almost five months after Love Addict’s initial release date.

You can now purchase Love Addict here!

However, to make it up to all of you who were patient enough to wait for me, I’ve decided that as an apology, Love Addict will be sold at a special discount of $8 off until March 7th!
All you need to do is to apply the following discount code: 7SW6E3Q3 when placing your order.
Remember that if you want to place an order through CreateSpace, you’ll need to make an account, which takes about 5 minutes, so please do that first!

I am so sorry it took so long to get the webstore on its feet, but I hope it was worth the wait!

Please don’t hesitate to share this offer with all your BL-lovng friends as well!
If you’d like to place an order for either ‘SNOW’ or ‘Jaded’, you’ll find links to their webstores in the sidebar to the right.



2014 Digest

Another year has passed, and much like I feared, I didn’t blog at all in 2014. I hope that wasn’t a resolution for the past year? Let’s say it wasn’t.

When I think of 2014 in retrospect, I tend to think that it was a very uneventful year, at least compared to 2013! My friends and I have many annual traditions, so it often seems like the most memorable things from the year that went, are usually the same every year. And yet very different.
It kind of feels like 2014 was half good old traditions, and half intense studying for so many exams, I can’t even remember anymore.
But when I look a little closer, it was much more than that. The latter part of 2014 in particular, came with some huge changes in my life.

Love Addict was released of course, long overdue, and with my heart trembling at the thought of sharing this (for now) last piece of the Jaded SNOW project with everyone. And, being what it was, I was extremely nervous about how people would take to this story in comparison to the first two.

As much as I’d love to, I can’t live on my writing alone, so I work on the side. In September, I suddenly had no time for writing (not that there had been much of that anyway, with all the exam preparations all year through), because I had to work full-time. And then in October it came to a very abrupt halt when my workplace was closed down.
November came with NaNoWriMo, and job hunting. By December, I had a new job, which doesn’t suit me at all, but is challenging and fun all the same.

The biggest change though, is something I can’t really say that I feel on my body, to use that term of expression; it’s not something that is visible, and I can’t say it’s changed me as a person. But, it’s changed my course in life.
On December 1st, I got my diploma. In Norwegian, that would be Vitnemål, which is loosely the same as a High School Diploma, but different.
This is something I haven’t talked about. It’s not that I’ve been ashamed – I’ve written before about bullying and personal illness which forced me to drop out of school at 17. At times, I’ve felt left behind, and the inferiority complex at watching my peers and even their younger siblings rise through upper secondary and university, while I remained in the same spot, has been gnawing at my mind, but at the same time I’ve known that there’s been a reason for why my life turned out the way it did. I’ve not been ashamed, but it’s been too personal to want to talk much about it .
And this journey towards actually completing school, has been a long, winding path, complete with fighting the bureaucracy and my own demons. It’s taken a very long time compared to what it should have, and all along I’ve been terrified to tell anyone what I was doing, because if I failed, I felt like things would get so much worse.
In a society where everyone wants you to be perfect, and where everyone expects you to follow a certain path, it’s not accepted to fall behind the way I did, and I’ve had a lot of condescending comments from ignorant people along the way.

But you know, I did it. In my own way, by my own terms and in my own time.
Although people tell me that “someone as clever as you should’ve done that long ago” or “You’re so clever! You should go onto studying at university!”, it irks me that they’ve chosen not to look past the image of me being clever – yes, I am, but there are underlying factors, and reasons to why this has taken so long. And you know what? Although I wish I could’ve been finished earlier, I don’t regret a single thing, even though falling behind wasn’t a conscious choice I made. In the meantime, I have done so many things that I know I wouldn’t have done otherwise. I’ve published three novels, I’ve learned a language, I’ve developed in all kinds of ways.
Regret changes nothing. And the reason I wanted to write this long-ass ramble, was that I know many of you are struggling with various things, and feeling like you’re not good enough, or not doing things right – and that is not true.
Three years ago, I never thought I’d get a diploma. Five years ago, I didn’t want one. I’d given up, and settled on my future as a “failure”.
This is me telling you that sometimes you have to take the long way around, and nobody can tell you that that’s wrong!

I don’t feel any different really. But knowing that I completed that step in my life – that feels good. And I’m very proud of myself. So that’s probably the most important thing that’s happened in 2014!

I also experienced loss this year. My wonderful bunny passed away. I’d had him for almost nine years, more or less since the day he was born, so that was a huge blow, and incredibly difficult, not only for me, but for everyone who knew and loved him. Being a rabbit who loved everyone, there were a lot of people who were saddened by it.
Although I wasn’t planning on it, I ended up adopting a new bunny a while later, and teeny little Seira became a member of ours household.

Much like last year, I also kept a Jar of Lovely Things again in 2014, and though I slacked off and probably forgot to add a bunch of things over the course of the year, I stacked up on some wonderful memories!
The lovely things in the jar range from bacon to fangirling to huge turning points in life.
Some (very random) extracts from 2014 include, in no particular order:

Lovely things 14

Turns out 2014 was pretty eventful after all, and full of new experiences. Most of them were good ones. I already have great plans for 2015, so bring it on!

Thanks for sticking with me for this past year. I hope for your support again in 2015~
Happy New Year everyone! ♡

Manga Recommendation: Koe no Katachi

I wrote up this review a couple of weeks back, but forgot to publish it.

This isn’t a BL manga, but I feel like reviewing it after all. Most of the non-BL manga I read, I pick up completely on a whim, often based on having seen it on the front page of some manga site, and being reeled in by its title, or color art work. With Koe no Katachi, both of these spoke to me; the color cover art was lovely, and the name of the manga provoked my curiosity.

Koe no Katachi is a shonen manga, but very different from the shonen I’ve read before. Though the description also labels the story as “slice of life”, “comedy” and “romantic comedy”, there’s not a whole lot of fun in this manga. This is a story about being different, and most of all; it’s a story of bullying.

To start with, Koe no Katachi was released as a one shot, which tells the story of Nishimiya Shouko, a deaf girl who transfers to a “normal” elementary school class, where she is bullied for being different. One of the bullies is class mate Ishida Shouya, who is a rambunctious, loud mouthed young boy.
Despite trying her best to become friends with her class, Nishimiya ends up transferring out, because of the bullying.

This story won the 80th Weekly Shounen Magazine Newbie Best Mangaka, despite being a one-shot. It was then published as a serialization from August 2013, in Weekly Shonen Magazine.

I’ve previously written about my experiences of being bullied, and reviewed ‘LIFE’, a manga that stands very close to my heart, even though it crushed it thoroughly, and while that one is absolutely gruesome, it’s also a shojou, and so it stretches things a bit far in certain aspects. In comparison, Koe no Katachi is more realistic. It’s simpler, and the story itself is fairly short, although it spans over 7 volumes total.
The interesting thing is, that as a person, and as a former victim of bullying, I find it hard to empathize with the bullies: If you make it your life goal to ruin someone else’s life, then you’re scum. That’s the general attitude I have to the subject of bullying. In that sense, Koe no Katachi is very interesting, because after Nishimiya’s transfer, Ishida finds that the tables are turned, and he becomes the victim. The serialization takes a different turn, and we follow Ishida through a transformation from top dog, to victim. The Ishida we met in the one shot is a very different Ishida from the one we read about in the serialization.

Koe no Katachi shows in a most brutal and realistic way how double standards and saving one’s own skin are powerful factors within a class room, and how your position can never be secure. We witness former bullies as they become the victims, ostracized and ignored, and how they learn from their own mistakes and face the harsh truth. It’s a story about double-crossing your old friends, and not having the guts to admit that you were wrong, but regretting your mistakes deep down, while at the same time being a story about changes and redemption. Some of the characters are impossible to forgive, even when they attempt to redeem themselves, while others have some surprising transformations throughout the series.

This is a manga that really hurts to read in many aspects. While reading it over these past couple of months, I’ve been frustrated and angry at so many of the characters; I’ve drowned from feels, cried with the characters, and laughed with them as well.

Now, I’m sitting down to read the final chapter which was uploaded today, anxious to see how it all wraps up.
(Author’s note: This review was written weeks ago)

It’s hard to tell a story like Ishida’s, but Koe no Katachi does it very well. Art wise, the manga is a nice mix of gorgeous imagery and the sketchier, rougher feel of a shonen manga.

If you like more serious and realistic manga, I definitely recommend this series!
It’s scheduled to be released in English from January 2015, so you can buy it at your local comic book shop from next quarter! I know I’ll be ready to collect the volumes!

Apparently, it has also been cleared for an anime release! Since the manga just wrapped up, I’m hoping they’ll adapt the entire series in the anime version as well.

Whether you choose to wait for the anime, or pick up the manga, I highly recommend that you check it out!

Love Addict Mail Orders!

Okay so I am a horrible person for having forgotten all about this! Love Addict has been out for two months, and I have yet to open my webstore – This has to do with the fact that we’re planning on revamping my website, in order to make purchasing novels easier. As you know, ordering from CreateSpace means that you’ll need an account on there, and I think many people aren’t up for that, which isn’t helping my sales.

So, what I’m finally going to do, is that I’ll open for mail orders!
This means that you can order the novel directly from me, and get it signed!

How to do this:

* Send an e-mail to, with the subject “Love Addict Mail Order”

* Fill in the following:

Your Name:
How many copies:
Paypal Address:

What message you want written in the book (Optional)

* Mail orders will be open until December 25th!

* The books will be $28 (NOK 200;-) a piece, ex. shipping. Shipment costs depends on where you live in the world.


Well not really.

But I was on the radio today! Along with fellow Torucon representative Aurora, and my cosplayer friends Kim  and Andrea.

We were interviewed last week for a reportage on Cosplay by the national channel, for their daily feature ‘Kveldsåpent’, who sent their reporter in to talk with us about cosplay as a phenomenon, why we cosplay and what it means to us, as well as to allow her to watch while we got dressed up and styled ourselves.
A lolita, Suzuya Juuzou, Mikey from TMNT and Frozen’s Elsa were soon ready for action in Andrea’s living room, and we had such a good time, talking to the reporter about all kinds of cosplay-related things! It’s a rarity that reporters truly take their time when it comes to this hobby, at least in my experience as a PR-officer, so we were really enjoying the casual interview and conversation we were having, while being taped.

Unfortunately, despite the programme itself spanning over three hours, the feature on cosplay barely filled a few minutes, which yes, was disappointing, considering how many good questions were asked, and how in-depth the interview really went.

Still, it was a really cool experience to have, and it was interesting to get to explore our own views as well in the process, to compare experiences and talk about our own perceptions. So even if only a fraction it actually made it on-air, I’m glad to have been a part of it.
There might also be a feature article on NRK’s website, so crossing our fingers for that.
Meanwhile, the segment can be found Here. It’s supposed to be available for download as a podcast, but that doesn’t seem to work.
They also posted some photos from the interview on their facebook page, including this really snazzy one where I was mid-makeup, because Suzuya’s stitches take hours to apply, so I had to go to Andrea’s in half-costume, and with my hair pinned out of my stitches… Exactly what I wanted on the internet ♡
The things I do for Torucon, you guys!

Anyway, I should be in bed as I’m writing this post, so I probably won’t share it until tomorrow afternoon.
Hn, I have another post waiting, and yet another one after that~ Augh, so busy!
11 days and counting down until my final exam unless I decide to apply to uni!
So basically studying takes up all my life these days; or it would, if there wasn’t so much other stuff going on at the same time. I’ll try to get back on top of things.

Cosplayers represent! Photo: Julie Bendos, NRK.

Cosplayers represent! Photo: Julie Bendos, NRK.

Hectic lifestyle

Augh, is there ever anything such as enough time in this world?

My absence lately can largely be credited to some massive changes in my life, as well as the preparation and execution of Torucon’s Halloween event ‘Toruween’ which I was one of the leaders behind. Despite some chaotic days of rigging beforehand, we managed to finish the event safely and successfully on Friday night!
I had such a good time playing host up on stage, together with Aurora for once, and having been half of the leading team, and an in-promptu member of the deco crew, I have learned a lot of new things, and gained some more insight into what other parts of our crew do as well, which is definitely a good experience to have. Hopefully, it can help me become a better crew member overall!

It was also fun to be allowed to cosplay as part of the crew for once. I had been wanting to do this cosplay ever since the Hallween Party PV came out, so I was very excited about it~


Among the decorations, we had a fandom graveyard to set off the feels of all our attendees right off the bat. 
I decided to break my own heart a little, so I ordered the decoration crew to make Maaya’s grave stone as well.

…and brought it home with me

Because I was busy helping with shopping for materials, building a haunted house and decorations, the event itself and then taking it all down again on Monday, I’ve barely had any time to be online.

In addition, I was working on my quinque for my Halloween cosplay at Outland for Saturday, every free moment I got outside of Toruween preparation, to the point where we got there two hours before closing time, just because the damned thing wasn’t done in time. So much stress! By the time I got there, the other cosplayers were long since gone, and my poor friends had been waiting for me for like three hours…. Σ(^∀^;)
But I am so pleased with how the whole cosplay came out! And I managed to win the cosplay contest, which was really cool since I’ve never won anything in my life. So that was fun.
I hope you all had a great Halloween as well!


Saturday’s cosplay was Suzuya Juuzou from Tokyo Ghoul, but our dawdling resulted in a photo shoot after sundown, with very little light. Though, I’m very happy with how the photos came out, despite the high ISO!


I don’t really use my dA much anymore, but I’ll be uploading more of these, so please check them out~☆

To top it off, it’s November, which means National Novel Writing Month.
I really wasn’t going to do it this year – especially since I have an exam on December first, in a foreign language, so I really should be focusing on that. But all of a sudden I had extra time on my hands…. And here we are. I started a day late, and I’m behind my usual schedule. I tend to finish NaNo really fast, but this year I’m so stressed, I have a hard time sitting down to focus. Which is why I am writing this blog post, rather than actually writing….

I’ve been on the move all day, and when I finally made it home, I fell asleep…. So I have yet to write a single word today. Which is why I’ve cracked open a can of Rockstar, and plan to sit up until I’ve jotted down an adequate amount of filler words…..

So basically that’s what’s been going on. . And then I need to get working on my webstore, I am so sorry that it’s not up and running yet.
I still want to do the whole mail order thing with Love Addict, but I’m finding it difficult to get a response from my darling readers that’s you.
So please be patient with me. I’ll make a separate post for that in a short while
Didn’t I say that last time too?
Feel free to nag me for these things you know!

Anyone else doing NaNo by the way?
And by all means – I need pointers on what to write for this years Advent Calendar as well! Amuse me; the comment section is here for a reason!

Almost there..

The other night, I wrote a blog post, added it to drafts…and scrapped the whole thing.

There is something peculiar about the feeling as a release date approaches. As an avid fan of pre-ordering, the final weeks or days for me are mostly spent waiting; an exhausting, agonizing wait with frequent trips to the mail box, hoping that today….

As an author, the same period of time looks a little bit different.

I can’t really recall how I felt before the releases of SNOW and Jaded. I think… With SNOW it was all so sudden, I didn’t have time to prepare. While Jaded was more like finally.

Up until a couple of days ago, I didn’t think much of the release at all. Maybe I’m getting used to doing these kind of events, or maybe it’s just because I am so busy these days, I hardly have time to sit down and think; I mostly find myself running around frantically trying to cram more hours into my day.

But when I sat down and tried to think and feel.. There’s definitely something there.
It’s anticipation, and admittedly, some nerves.
The latter didn’t exactly decrease when I stumbled across a rather cross review. As an author I am prepared for all kinds of opinions; and all books are not for all people. Still, that’s not to say it didn’t hurt. That said, it’s something that’s probably unavoidable, even though I wish I hadn’t come across it only days before a new release.

I’m excited to finally share Love Addict with you, but at the same time it’s kind of terrifying.
It always is.
There’s something really strange about having kept something to yourself for so long, something that has been yours alone for so long, and then allowing people to parttake in it; to read it and form an opinion on it.

I’m excited, but also nervous. Maybe because Love Addict is so different from the other two novels?
But it would be. All my novels are shaped by the characters that parttake in the story. Although Love Addict has the same universe and characters as Jaded, it’s a vastly different story, because Aki and Miya are such different people. The characters’ personalities and traits ultimately shape the narrative and the story.
I find that rather fascinating.

Love Addict was really fun to work on, compared to the struggles I had with Jaded and Aki’s complex nature. Miya is simpler and way more honest, so it was really relieving to write this story.
Hopefully, you will enjoy reading it as well!

Part of me is terrified to let this project go and see it in other people’s hands, but I know how great this is all going to feel tomorrow, when the release event commences.
There’s definitely a peculiar feeling on the night before a release, but I don’t think I’d want to miss out on it. Not at all.

If you’re in Trondheim, don’t hesitate to drop by Outland! I’ll be there signing books from 12:00 pm!
And if you’re on time, you can leave with a bunch of these sexy freebies as well:


There’s something in the air.
This past year has been long and dreary on my part. I’ve been too busy to think, to busy to breathe. And by breathe….I mean write.
Horrified, I realized the other day that I couldn’t remember the last time I actually sat down and wrote something. Up until August, I don’t think I’d written a single creative word since November 2013. That’s a very long time for someone whose head explodes unless it gets some kind of release for all the ideas and stories that are floating around inside.

I’ve written small pieces, and while you never forget how to ride a bicycle, isn’t the truth that when you haven’t been on one for a very, very long time, your balance will be a bit off? Your pedaling will be hesitant and awkward? That’s what it felt like. And even when writing the characters that I now so well, I couldn’t connect with them properly.
It takes time if you want to get back in the saddle again. So although I am swamped, I will write more from here on. Autumn is the perfect season for melancholic music and unpaved virtual roads.

It’s also the time to start gearing up for NaNo. I’m dreading it to be honest. This year I haven’t got a clue what I’ll be writing, or if I will have any time to write at all. To begin with, I’ll fall behind right off the bat, as I’m busy on the first weekend. So we’ll see how that goes. But even when I tell myself “No, I’m not doing it this year.” I end up doing it anyway. I know myself. So I need to practice, to allow myself to tamper with plots and characters and let the ideas flow.

I ran into some kids today – and spoke with them for quite a long time. I’m no good with children, but my hair always attracts them. Of course, it helps when these kids are students at my own school, and I’m already conversing with teachers who worked there when I was a kid their age. It also helps when I happen to know the families of some of these kids, and we actually have something to talk about.
This little girl, whose family I’m very fond of, asked me – because I knew her family, if I could give her a present. I told her that I have no money because I’m an adult. She wanted something still, so I asked if she wanted a story – to which she replied “NO.”
Then I told her that I write novels. Suddenly, they all wanted a story. As expected, one about princesses, and princes, a scary dragon and a terrifying vampire. And by all means, I don’t know the faintest thing about children’s stories. I don’t think the kind of stuff I do is suited for anyone who haven’t yet fallen into the pits of temptation that adolescence offers. And I said that I couldn’t make it up right then and there, but I could feel the wheels turning. Perhaps I’m way out of my field here, but maybe I’ll do it. I did kind of promise them. And challenging oneself out of the comfort zone is never a bad thing, right?
It’s just a lovely feeling to have the creativity flowing again, to be able to utilize it, and let it free.

Speaking of coming out of the comfort zone; the release for Love Addict is steadily approaching, and I’m sort of terrified.
I’ve more or less picked the winners of the give-away.
The release date has been decided.
And right as I’m typing up this entry, I am making arrangements with Outland, laying out the details.

It’s such an odd feeling, when you’re about to share something with the world that you haven’t shared with anyone before. Even though there are more people involved in the process, I always want to try to keep the project to myself for as long as I can – to protect it. To treasure it.
But we’re at the end of the road here. I want to share Love Addict with you all. I want Miya’s determination, his trials and his challenges to reach all of you, to make you smile (and maybe cry).
It’s time. And still I anxiously hesitate before opening my e-mails, before opening an IM window with work-related messages, or before sending out a message to a fan.

It’s such an odd and exciting time.

Do you want a free copy of Love Addict or Jaded?

[Edit: give-away is now closed! Winners will be contacted via mail!]


That’s right! I’m giving away free books – and one of them hasn’t even been released yet!
“Love Addict” is my new novel, coming out in October (actual release date will be revealed shortly).

The story revolves around 28 year old Miya, who thought he was pleased with his life just the way it was. Being a kid from the sticks of Kamigori, he quickly embraced the thrills of the city when he moved to Kobe, abandoning his teenage heart breaks at home. Nowadays, he is leading a life style that can only be described as hazardous – but free. He’s financially stable, he’s got the best of friends and there are few worries in his life.
And yet…

What Miya thought he wanted turned out to be far from what he really wants. And when his heart’s desire enters his life, he finds that he’ll have to fight for it.

Love Addict is a side-story to “Jaded”, which was released on December 1st, 2012, and thus becomes the third installment in the “Jaded SNOW project.”
Unlike its predecessors however, “Love Addict” is a more lighthearted novel, with a simpler story. The main character is someone easily recognized by those of you who’ve already read “Jaded”, and a character who’s easy to fall in love with.

The actual give-away:

Because I’m an independent author, I don’t have the opportunity to spend lots of funds on commercial ads, nor do I have a publishing agency behind me to help with the promotion, and so I figured I’ll give this little idea a go:
I have two review-copies of Love Addict, which I will give out to lucky readers of this entry, as long as they match a few criteria:

*You have to run a BL/Yaoi blog (wordpress, tumblr, whichever platform).
Comment below that you’re interested, and link me to your blog, and I’ll contact you with the details, for further cooperation. I’ll be screening the comments, so you can leave your e-mail address as well. ^^

*The people I select will then receive a copy of Love Addict in the mail, prior to the actual release date. Within a reasonable time span, I require you to write a review of the novel and post it on your blog. Hopefully you will enjoy the novel enough to recommend it to your readers, and send them my way~ ❤️

* Finally, notify me when you’ve posted the review, and link me to it.

Since I also happen to sit on a spare copy of Jaded, this one will also be up for grabs, for anyone who would like a free novel in exchange for a review.

Sounds good?
Please don’t hesitate to share this with fellow bloggers, and ask if there are any questions!